u know, lately im living in a life that is full of madness. people can't see what i saw. i just don't know, life just doesn't makes sense to me right now. i need a time, space since last 2 weeks cause this is a complete disaster. im not just talking about friends here, also about my future. ape yg aq tulis sekarang ni pon mcm sedar x sedar je. kalau tongkang tebalik ayat tu maaf la yeh. ade 6 hari cuti ni nk ape pon tatau, assignment mcm mudah nk disiapkan. x srabut mane pon. eh ter kerek pulak, tapi tu yg betulnye, assignment bukan punce aq hilang pedoman. sebabnye adalah, kenapa aq still singgle and super available sangat2 ni ha? nk tahu sebab ape? im losing my orientation track doh! yes can u believe it? no im not. bila da ckp mcm ni, silap2 aq jadi bisexual pulk nnti, tp ntahla weh. x bole bg ape2 statement kenchang sebab aq pon tatau nk wat ape. jiwa kosong kot. ok sekarang ni, aq tengah menggila nk buat photoshoot. tengah gile tahap ayam. kalo korang nk tgok gamba2 yg aq da shoot, edit sume tu g la tgok kat second block aq tu yeh, AZHA MOHAMAD PHOTOGRAPHY
http://azhamohamad.blogspot.com/ ni la blog aq yg x seberapa, x macam melissa rodwell punye blog pon or even annas easkey punye, ye ah sebab baru nak naik, tp idea melambak!
boleh x aq citer somehing general kat sini? oh, blog aq kot, suke hati ah nk cite ape kan? ekekeke aq agak terkilan la jugak bile aq x dapat ambil gmba ngn arwah ayah aq waktu sebelum dia meninggal dulu, sebab aq x de picture same2 dengan die. haaaaayy sebulan dua ni, aq selalu terbayang2 muke die je x kire kat mana2. damn betul, kadang2 aq mcm nk melalak kat public bile ternampak iras2 muke die. nk2 kalau body size sama. terkedu kejap. tapi nk buat cane kan? bile die tinggalkan aq waktu kecik2 dulu, mak aq ckp maknanya aq dah ready utk hadap hidup ni, tp aq rasa mcm x ready, 10 tahun lamanya, sekarang aq terkilan even pantang fikir pasal die bertakung air mata. susah senang family aq dulu waktu die dah meninggal dulu sape tahu kan? aq ngn mak aq pegi niaga kat pasa malam tiap2 hari, aq balik sekola terus g pasa malam naik bus, mak aq gerak dulu sbub aq ade kelas extra, kene hempas hujan balik 10 11 malam, keje sekolah siap tgh malam 6:30 bagun siap2 tggu bas.. tiap2 hari macam tu, waktu tu x ramai pon nk kwan ngn mak aq kecuali org yg niaga sama2 kat pasa malam tu. yela kiteorg x kaye mane pon kan.. watu tu abang akak aq sume study lg. tp sekarang tibe ramai mengaku sedara mara. mane x nye, ibu tunggal berjaya besarkan anak2 dengan baik. tetiba dapat jemputan makn ngn datuk itu ini datin itu ini... sebab nak kenenkan abang saya dengan anak dorang. kadang2 kalau aq naik van sekali ngn mak aq nk g pasa malam dulu, mak aq selalu nangis tibe2 sebab rindu kat ayah aq. bile aq tnye kenapa nangis? die cakap ayah selalu susuh kite senyap waktu dia driving dulu. sekarang mak ter ikot ikot perangai die. mak teringat tu je. aq? ape yg aq ingat? muke die je, kenangan bersama2 x ingat, suara die? aq x ingat. tapi aq happy gile bile setiap kali aq datang kubur die, dahan pokok bunga yang aq patahkan then cucuk kat kubur die hidup segar bugar. setiap kali aq datang pokok tu hidup rendang, kecuali ade satu x hidop sebab lembu pijak. this is hard you know, tahu x betapa jelesnye aq bila dengar member aq dapat call dari ayah die, citer pasal kisah funny ngn ayah die ape sume. tapi sebab ayah aq la aq kat sini, semue bnde yg aq buat nk bg die happy. walaupun aq hanya taip je kisah ayah aq kat sini dah basah la jugak collar baju aq lap air mata jantan nih. tak tahu la cane nk ckp lg rindunye kat die. ade 2 malam lepas aq termimpi die. terjaga aq terus melalak. tapi cover2 sikit ngn bantal sebab nanti roomate aq nmpak. hahaha tapi x pe lah tuhan nak die pergi dulu kite iye kan je sebab mak saya baru balik umrah ckp ayah aq jumpe mak aq kat sana and die happy tgok anak2 die sekarang. and die mention nama aq kat mak aq! menitik air mata aq bile mak aq bg tau kat aq. dah la aq x penah nangis depan mak aq. and nenek2 and atuk2 kat kg sume cakp muke ayah aq waktu kecik2 mcm aq. haiiish sebak aq bile teringat kat die.
antara lagu yang buat aq terpikir pasal die lagu adele "make you feel my love", christina perri "thousand years"
maybe lirik die certain2 x kene kan tp most of it perfect
tapi lagu adele tu memang buat aq melalak bagai nk gile. lirik die tepat dgn ape aq rasa. tp pape pon, tq lah sebab sudi baca entry yg ni. sorry sebab emotional n poyo sikit haha
When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no - one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you
Haven't made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I've known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/a/adele/make_you_feel_my_love.html ]
I'd go hungry
I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling
Down the avenue
Know there's nothing
That I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change
Are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing
Like me yet
I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love, To make you feel my love
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no - one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you
Haven't made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I've known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/a/adele/make_you_feel_my_love.html ]
I'd go hungry
I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling
Down the avenue
Know there's nothing
That I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change
Are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing
Like me yet
I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love, To make you feel my love
