I AM FINE NOW.. TQ :)

LOST IN MY SELF~!

I CAN SAY THAT RIGHT I AM LOST IN MY SELF. I DON'T HAVE A PLAN FOR MY SELF OTHER THAN STUDY STUFF. I DON'T EVEN HAVE A SECURE MIND THINKING, ALWAYS NEGATIVITY INSIDE OF MY HEAD. ALL THE WORDS THAT CAME OUT FROM MY MOUTH WAS FROM MY MIND. SO I MEAN IT AND ITS HURT OTHER PEOPLE FEELING. I HAVE BEEN MOTIVATED MYSELF TO NOT TO BELIEVED ANYBODY SO HARD AND AT THE END, I HAVE TO PAY THE FINE. HOW I CAN REDEEM BACK ALL OF MY MISTAKE? TOTALLY DOESN'T EVEN KNOW HOW I CAN DO IT. 

YOU CAN SEE IM SMILING, BEING CRAZY, LOUD, FUN, HYPERACTIVE ALL DAY LONG IN FRONT OF YOU GUYS.. BUT, WHEN I GOT BACK HOME... EVERYTHING IS JUST SO WRONG. YAH, ITS MIGHT BE JUST BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE A GIRLFRIEND. I DON'T KNOW. EVERYTHING IS JUST NOT THE SAME! NOT THE SAME LIKE I USED TO. 

I WANTED MY SELF BACK. LOST IN THE MIDDLE OF MY LIFE IS JUST WRONG. GOTTA TELL YA, I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I AM TALKING ABOUT. ITS LIKE EMPTY WORDS FROM ME BUT ITS HURTS.. PEOPLE SAID THAT YOUR LIFE NEVER GONNA BE  PERFECT IF YOU DON'T HAVE A PROBLEMS. BUT THIS IS TOO PERFECT FOR ME. WHAT M I SUPPOSED TO DO? OTHER THAN PRAY TO GOD. I AM RECENTLY.. ITS WORKING.. OTHER THAN THAT. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I FEELS SO LOST WITH MYSELF. THE FULL EVENT ANTICIPATION JUST MAKES ME FEEL WANNA BURST~~ ITS SUPPOSED TO BE FUN... AND ITS MY MOMENT I THINK THAT WAKE UP CALL FROM ANYBODY NEVER GONNA CHANGED ME. IT IS FROM MY SELF. 

FRIEND COMES AND GO, MONEY COMES AND GO, CAR COMES AND GO, A LOT OF THING COME AND GO. BUT HOW CAN I CHOOSE TO NOT TO LET IT GO. I AM NOT REGRET WHEN I HATES SOMEBODY. I REGRET THE THINGS THAT I WANNA TO STAY TILL THE LAST BEAT OF MY HEART  GONE. 

YOU CAN SAY THAT TROUBLE IS OUR FRIEND. YES IT IS. IT IS ACTUALLY THE BEST DEMON THAT YOU HAVE INSIDE OF YOUR HEAD. YOU WANT YOUR FUTURE, YOU CAN HAVE IT...JUST ERASE ME FROM YOUR PAST.. I NEED YOU TO GONE FAST. THATS WHAT PEOPLE SAID THAT WHEN THEY HATE YOU.

LADY GAGA~!

never knew~!

aiiii sekarang semuanya dah x sama... 

aq sangat sedih kalau nk tahu.

KPB pon busy, x leh kua,malas kelua, x sempat aq nk share problem dengan die.

duduk rumah bosan, lagi bosan kot dari semester break.

kalau lah bende2 ni sebenarnye x betul, aq happy gile. 

kawan semua ramai. tapi kawan yang lebih penting dan x ramai tu x ada bile lepak bersama buat aq sangat sedih dan bosan. bff la katakan. 

next story,

ada orang pecahkan rahsia pasal hujung sem lepas dekat aq sebab rasa bersalah dekat aq, membuatkan aq rasa sangat lah seperti orang yang mudah dipermainkan, ditipu, dan dilayan seperti sampah. should be nothing to me about that. 

senang kata, kalau kau still nak berkawan dengan aq, yeayyy la yang aq ckp..

tp kalau kau malas nk berkawan dengan aq lagi, ckap pon dgn aq mcm nak x nak,

x pa ah, lupakan sahaja pasal kita punye persahabatan,

aq x nak jadi orang yang dilupakan bila kau senang,

pertolongan dekat depan mata aq bila kau susah.

dah letih dah... harap dapat lepak dengan kau lagi macam dulu. aq nak sangat ni.

disebabkan 1 human being perubahan menjadi ketara.

ape tah salah aq sampai kau buat mcm ni. 

"friends" friends~!

stole my happy, made my cry

Took the lonely and took me for a ride

And I wanna undo it

had my mind, now I want it back

I'm starting to see everything you guys lack

friends, you guys blew it

 put me through it

And I never say your name, and I never will

And all your things, well I threw 'em in the trash

And I'm not even sad

Now you guys only have yourself to blame

For playing all those stupid games

You guys always gonna be the same

you all never change

want my future?

hell no, can't have it

I'm still trying to erase you guys from my past

I need you and you gone so fast

Oh, maybe next time they'll think before they cheat...

you wanted to hide your "privacy" i give you now.

you wanted to keep it secret, go on.

you wanted to use me for your own priority, its over.

OWLS~!

OI! OI! IM BACK~ ITS BEN A WHILE THAT IM NOT POSTING ANYTHING HERE AITTE? 

WELL IM JUST..... MMMMM

BEAUTIFUL MOMENT~