THE LEOPARD GIRL

SHE IS THE LEOPARD GIRL

too contrast :/

official editorial photo

sorry for the quality of this photo, face book just suck!

the beginning

hi... its 2012 actually finally, the year with full of speculations. new year eve was amazing like usual, and just so you know, ict was cuhrayzee. but we have so much fun. together with amy, sharidah, eipy, ciko, eny, dayang, ayul, adib, arip, amin, raja... unfortunately, linda,apis, RK, couldn't make it with us... traffic was suck! well today im not gonna talk about what is my new dream for 2012. its just not me. 

my goal is, i wanna be fashion photgrapher, and also interior designer. im tired hiding my "GAY" dream job to the world. i feels so free capturing moments through my lens and designing some space for people. cause what i think i what i will get doing this job. btw i got to go now, im not feeling so good cause my mood is everywhere. i am sad with my self. 

what is going on?

hi guys. back here so late *______* have u ever wondering y d hell in the world friends always come and go? i don't understand that but aaaaaamm..... it is hard right to lose them? i am not so sure. now i am listening to pretty reckless-make me wanna die. i heard this song first time when i watched victoria's secret fashion show lately. very intersting opening. with candice opening d show looking like that, pow! uh-may-zinnnnn!  so let's get back to my story. where m i just now? mmmmm ok. i have a few friends that seems like they trying to run away from me. ok not just me, with me n my friends. y, i don't understand. so i don't wanna think a lot about that. im just wanna know how it feels like when losing our friend. ooo i thought it is already 4 a.m but it is 2:30.. hihihi i need time machine. 

ok the second thing is. officially, it is the right time for me to have a girlfriend. y?cause litarally i found my self confused. oooo it is not my orientation. im just confused my my self with what the heck m i doin. how could it b like this. yeah after 5 and a half year being single, totally drive me cuh ray zeee... so many speculation about me has been made. i can find a girl to be my girl in a short time. butta, the q is, it is just for fun or is it for me to love her like for real. i don't wanna treat her like a bull dog if i can't love her just because to cover up all the rumors that i am gay. that is not fair for those girl. so i made my mind clearly, "no matter what people gonna say about me, go on. but when the time is right, game on". sya told me that i might be a good lover if i had a girl. poww! how d hell in the world this guy with so much energy goin on, loud, hyper, extremely half rude, hard-headed, lazy but hardworking, swinging mood person can be a good lover. for god sake, i don't get it neither.

so, i am not so sure if i have a class tomorrow morning cause, everybody keep sayin that "esok? kelas? ade ke weh?" hahahaha powww again! 80% happy answer. well i am listening to nicki minaj right now. super bass. what is that mean? super bass? boobs + ass? oh kemon nicki, we knew what's that song real meaning is. butta... your song and your voice r so cool. haha my hair looks terrible without my hat. very unbalanced. 

to make sure that im in a good condition, i will stay in da house tomorrow think about who i am really was. if i don't have a class tomorrow hahaha. so its time for me to walk around to c what is d new posts of my friend. :) have a good night and day people *______- red malboro just  make my head spinningaround. haha

WHY?

THERE IS SOME THING IN MY BODY THAT STILL SLEEPING. 

AND IT IS NOT THAT EASY BEING POSITIVE 

EVERY SINGLE MINUTES OF MY LIFE.

I AM A HUMAN, NOT A DANCER.

I AM A PERSON WHO NEVER BE AFRAID OF MAKING A MISTAKES. 

IF I HAVE A CHANCE TO SAY THAT I AM MAD WITH EVERY SINGLE ONE OF

YOU, I WOULD. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF BEING BLAMED BECAUSE OF OTHERS.

I HAVE LEARNED WORK ETHIC, COMMITMENT, PUNCTUAL, LOVE AND LIE,

AND LIFE. WITH A WICKED MIND, I'LL STAY

LIKE THIS. NOT AS A GAY, STRAIGHT, BISEX, BUT AS A PERSON WHO THINK ABOUT

HIS FUTURE LIFE.

 LITERALLY, I WANNA BE,

A PHOTOGRAPHER THAT CAN EARNED LOTTA MONEY,

AN ARCHITEC,

SO AM I SUPPOSED TO CARE ABOUT MY GRAMAR RIGHT NOW? NO. I AM MAD.

Y?

CAUSE I AM LOSING WHO I AM AND WHO I AM SUPPOSED TO BE.

I AM SECRETLY SAD AND DO CRY Y :

STILL SINGLE.

STILL HAVING THE SAME RESULT.

STILL ALONE. EVEN THOUGH I AM HAVING A LOT OF FRIEND IN MY LIFE.

IT IS GONNA BE DREAM COMES TRUE IF ..

I M SMILIN'

assalammualaikum. ola!!! happy month even though struggling a bit with co-workers and manager. hahahaha but its over. over~~sepanjang bekerja kat situ... i learned work ethic, commitment, punctuality, and money!   hahaha x mau dah aq keje banquet. keje kat cafe department lagi bayekkk. sekarang kulit hitam sebab baru balik pangkor... x pe berbaloi. bestnye lain macam dari dulu. walaupun da 2 kali datang pangkor, tp ni paling best ah. hahaha minggu depan dah start semester 6. the last chapter for diploma. cheewah.pui. hahahaha x tau ape jadi, tapi bia tuhan tentukan. heeee. 

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i just fell in love lately. again..heeee so... hit me with any love song, i can sing it like the song is mine. hahahaha bunga tahi ayam sudah kembang mekar... diam diam! :)

api kebanggan kami selama 2 malam. hahahaha

SETELAH SEKIAN LAMA

HYE!  lamae x melawat di blog sendiri ini. hahahaha sebulan lebih! "mane ade!!! 2 bulan lebih ah!"(suara hati cakap.) keje cuti sem mmg terase cepat gile doe. sebulan lebih cuti rase mcam 3 minggu je cuti tapi x po jang. gaji best beli barang idaman. hahahaha aq nk beli kasut. aq nk beli bag vans.. gile bag tu lawa gile. rase mcam budak UK kalau pakai kasut tu. eh bag tu. actually kasut n bag skali hahaha. gaji simpan lebih dari sparuh so bole shopping. ekekeke minggu depan g pangkor ngn aiman ayul ahrip sume.. woooaaa excited. mule2 macam malas nk pegi sbub da sue kali pegi. tapi kalini gi ngn member, bebas pulak aktiviti. ahahaha mesti ah lagi best. sape cakap x mmg lupe member ah. pukap x jadi pegi. die meratap di klang mengenangkan result. ai dayumm result betul2 cukup makan macam haremmmmmmmm.... 3.00 xpo jang. last semester aq buat rombakan study. kurang lepak, lebihkan pool, study lebih. ok? seyes ni... tiada tipu helah. pool bukan melepak, pool itu adalah sukan. so aq bersukan. ekekekekeke 

pada hari yang mulia 4-11-2011.... tarikh keramat seorang budak kampung masuk ke bandar selama 2 tahun setengah, menyambut hari jadinya yang jadi pada tarikh ni... dan di hari yang sama, menjenguk result sem 5.... puii aq la orangnye!! result kali pertama tgok, x de perasaan langsung. 3.00? nk happy ke sedih.? sebab betul2 cukup2 makan. HJ(haram jaddah). malam sikit... g makan ngn ayul adib mokk sume then kene tepung tawar.... hambek! 

yang x disangka2.. ade org ingat bday aq.. terharu la. terharu tahap usop wilchair ahahaha 

perkembangan keluarga? oh. sedikit confused. asal aq x dibawak ke sabah sekali bulan 12 ni hah? mentang2 da naik sem.. haiihhh untung ah... yang abang g london, yang mak n kakak kakak g sabah.... yang adiknye duk study kat shah alam. haiiihhhh sabah kot. lawa la tempat2 kat situ. merajuk rajuk ah aq.  mak kate lain kali la kite pegi eh? "mmmmmm"- jawapan aq...(harap2 dapat pegi dengan sebab kesian... tapi x dengar cite pon dapat pegi.,puii) 

cuti sem da nak abes. keje lagi tige minggu lebih..boleh collect dalam beratus2 -harapan- tapi sifat malasmenjadi jadi!!!!

akhir citer. nant
i aq post lagi ye sebab jam 5 pagi adalahh waktu sah utk makhluk mcm aq beradu dikamar sewa ini. hahaha selamat malam.