FASHION WORLD

hi, you know, fashion is all about being creative, look foward and the past. segalanya bagi aku perkara yang menyeronokkan. tapi seriously, bekerja dalam industry ni memang kita tak akan dapat lari dari macam2 situaton, betul? of course betul! contohnye, model lambat, make up/rambut tak kene macam yang photographer nak,  lighting utk camera tak menjadi, kesuntukan masa, rushing, kalau fashion show boleh la nak rushing2, kalau photoshoot nk rushing dah kenapa? gambar buruk photographer jugak kene nanti, kalau nk rushing pon make sure everything is done professionally to produce high end results. aku bukan apa, bukan nk berlagak bagus or apaaaa ini just based on research yg aq buat selama jadi FP ni.. hehe

macam aq ni, newbie lagi, cita-cita besar, hahaha tiap2 hari buat research nk ambil gambar macam patrick demarchelier and keje under anna wintour. tapi jauh lagi la nk berjaya AHAHAHA. tu kisah lain, tapi rules untuk berjaya dalam bidang fashion ni mudah je bagi model2 kat luar sana.... 

1. tepati masa... masa sangat lah penting. and aku sndiri dah terbawa bawa pasal masa, punctual tu sangat penting bagi aq, kalau kene menunggu lagi lah, 5 10 minit takpe kalau sejam dua jam... sila self motivate... seriously, kalau tak punctual, anda akan terus dipecat. member aq kerja tropicana life, hari ketiga dia kerja lambat 30 minit, terus kene pecat, no warning. sadiss

2. as a model .. sebagai model, kne sematkan dalam jiwa tu yang model ialah PRODUCT . tak kira lah macam mana make up artist nk buat dgn muka mu, rambut, warna apa baju dia nk letak kat anda, terima, jgn nak memandai tuka itu tuka ini, and jgn nak keluarkan prkataan "eh buruknya muka aq" "eeeeee tak suka lah mcm ni, rambut apa ni,? kenapa lipstick i warna hitam bukan pink, i suka pink" "eh i tak suka lah kasut ni i nak pakai kasut tu lah sbab i suka" you know what FUCK OFF. ^_^   majority semua org dlm industry ni tak suka kerja dgn model mcm tu, and then, PLEASE jangan budget LEGENDARY sangat wey, kalau tak faham high fashion punya poses tu apa, sila humble... even gisele bundhen pon cakap mcm yang aq ckp ni sbb aq copy ayat tu dari dia. sebb tu dia berjaya.

3. confident/ fucking fierce.... ini sangat lah penting. yakin je tau! jangan nk menggelabah, hang fikir poses and face expression hang ja, tak payah duk serabut pasal hair and make up, lighting apa suma tu, tu biar kami uruskan.... 

wel tu jela yg aq nk cakap, sorry terkasar bahasa

AIDILFITRI ISSUE

COMMERCIAL BEFORE MY ENTRY: SORRY FOR MY "HO YEAH HO YEAH ENGLISH"

yow guys.. happy aidilfitri to all muslim on earth, and and im here wants to invite all of you, no matter what is your religion is, culture, or even country, to join us for aidilfitri.. lots of food!! yeay! gonna gain my weight back! :D 

so this year ramadhan are totally one of a kind.. learned a lot, crying a lot, ha yes, i remember my late dad... i  did fashion shoot with my friends.. wanna see it?? here! haaha http://azhamohamad.blogspot.com/ and guys, i just sold my soul to fashion photography for lots of reason! well this is my prsonal blog, not gonna talk to much about fashion ey! haha

mmm my "baju melayu" colour this year.... haaaa earth colour! light brown, a little gold effect with the fabric, and some texture~ looks good and i like it! thanks brotha! 

issue for this month? 

FRIENDS! but, not with my close friend, don't wanna talk about it, they just another my failure list... like i told, im a fashion photographer and well, unfortunately im straight. and they thought that im not, just because of my passion and my "sissy" atitude, well that's just me! . sorry don't take my words in a different way, u r gay? you cool, u r transgender? u r cool. u r homo and u afraid to act like one and tell the truth? u r confuse. typical malay, a guy do fashion photography? "GAY" plus, i don't have a girlfriend. y? girlfriend = money = commitment = love = crazy.. hard to find one that understand me very well to become "the one" .stupidity controls mind. see ? did i just talk about it? haha so i just let them be. har har har har. 

so, that's all. tq for visiting my fucking "rare" blog. ahahhahaha personally from the silver olympic medal winner, AZHAR har har har har~

MAKE YOU FEEL MY LOVE

u know, lately im living in a life that is full of madness. people can't see what i saw. i just don't know, life just doesn't makes sense to me right now. i need a time, space since last 2 weeks cause this is a complete disaster. im not just talking about friends here, also about my future. ape yg aq tulis sekarang ni pon mcm sedar x sedar je. kalau tongkang tebalik ayat tu maaf la yeh. ade 6 hari cuti ni nk ape pon tatau, assignment mcm mudah nk disiapkan. x srabut mane pon. eh ter kerek pulak, tapi tu yg betulnye, assignment bukan punce aq hilang pedoman. sebabnye adalah, kenapa aq still singgle and super available sangat2 ni ha? nk tahu sebab ape? im losing my orientation track doh! yes can u believe it? no im not. bila da ckp mcm ni, silap2 aq jadi bisexual pulk nnti, tp ntahla weh. x bole bg ape2 statement kenchang sebab aq pon tatau nk wat ape. jiwa kosong kot. ok sekarang ni, aq tengah menggila nk buat photoshoot. tengah gile tahap ayam. kalo korang nk tgok gamba2 yg aq da shoot, edit sume tu g la tgok kat second block aq tu yeh, AZHA MOHAMAD PHOTOGRAPHY 

http://azhamohamad.blogspot.com/  ni la blog aq yg x seberapa, x macam melissa rodwell punye blog pon or even annas easkey punye, ye ah sebab baru nak naik, tp idea melambak! 

boleh x aq citer somehing general kat sini? oh, blog aq kot, suke hati ah nk cite ape kan? ekekeke aq agak terkilan la jugak bile aq x dapat ambil gmba ngn arwah ayah aq waktu sebelum dia meninggal dulu, sebab aq x de picture same2 dengan die. haaaaayy sebulan dua ni, aq selalu terbayang2 muke die je x kire kat mana2. damn betul, kadang2 aq mcm nk melalak kat public bile ternampak iras2 muke die. nk2 kalau body size sama. terkedu kejap. tapi nk buat cane kan? bile die tinggalkan aq waktu kecik2 dulu, mak aq ckp maknanya aq dah ready utk hadap hidup ni, tp aq rasa mcm x ready, 10 tahun lamanya, sekarang aq terkilan even pantang fikir pasal die bertakung air mata. susah senang family aq dulu waktu die dah meninggal dulu sape tahu kan? aq ngn mak aq pegi niaga kat pasa malam tiap2 hari, aq balik sekola terus g pasa malam naik bus, mak aq gerak dulu sbub aq ade kelas extra, kene hempas hujan balik 10 11 malam, keje sekolah siap tgh malam 6:30 bagun siap2 tggu bas.. tiap2 hari macam tu, waktu tu x ramai pon nk kwan ngn mak aq kecuali org yg niaga sama2 kat pasa malam tu.  yela kiteorg x kaye mane pon kan.. watu tu abang akak aq sume study lg. tp sekarang tibe ramai mengaku sedara mara. mane x nye, ibu tunggal berjaya besarkan anak2 dengan baik. tetiba dapat jemputan makn ngn datuk itu ini datin itu ini... sebab nak kenenkan abang saya dengan anak dorang. kadang2 kalau aq naik van sekali ngn mak aq nk g pasa malam dulu, mak aq selalu nangis tibe2 sebab rindu kat ayah aq. bile aq tnye kenapa nangis? die cakap ayah selalu susuh kite senyap waktu dia driving dulu. sekarang mak ter ikot ikot perangai die. mak teringat tu je. aq? ape yg aq ingat? muke die je, kenangan bersama2 x ingat, suara die? aq x ingat. tapi aq happy gile bile setiap kali aq datang kubur die, dahan pokok bunga yang aq patahkan then cucuk kat kubur die hidup segar bugar. setiap kali aq datang pokok tu hidup rendang, kecuali ade satu x hidop sebab lembu pijak. this is hard you know, tahu x betapa jelesnye aq bila dengar member aq dapat call dari ayah die, citer pasal kisah funny ngn ayah die ape sume. tapi sebab ayah aq la aq kat sini, semue bnde yg aq buat nk bg die happy. walaupun aq hanya taip je kisah ayah aq kat sini dah basah la jugak collar baju aq lap air mata jantan nih. tak tahu la cane nk ckp lg rindunye kat die. ade 2 malam lepas aq termimpi die. terjaga aq terus melalak. tapi cover2 sikit ngn bantal sebab nanti roomate aq nmpak. hahaha tapi x pe lah tuhan nak die pergi dulu kite iye kan je sebab mak saya baru balik umrah ckp ayah aq jumpe mak aq kat sana and die happy tgok anak2 die sekarang. and die mention nama aq kat mak aq! menitik air mata aq bile mak aq bg tau kat aq. dah la aq x penah nangis depan mak aq. and nenek2 and atuk2 kat kg sume cakp muke ayah aq waktu kecik2 mcm aq. haiiish sebak aq bile teringat kat die. 

antara lagu yang buat aq terpikir pasal die lagu adele "make you feel my love", christina perri "thousand years"

maybe lirik die certain2 x kene kan tp most of it perfect

tapi lagu adele tu memang buat aq melalak bagai nk gile. lirik die tepat dgn ape aq rasa. tp pape pon, tq lah sebab sudi baca entry yg ni. sorry sebab emotional n poyo sikit haha 

When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no - one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you
Haven't made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I've known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/a/adele/make_you_feel_my_love.html ]
I'd go hungry
I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling
Down the avenue
Know there's nothing
That I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change
Are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing
Like me yet

I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love, To make you feel my love

THE LEOPARD GIRL

SHE IS THE LEOPARD GIRL

too contrast :/

official editorial photo

sorry for the quality of this photo, face book just suck!

the beginning

hi... its 2012 actually finally, the year with full of speculations. new year eve was amazing like usual, and just so you know, ict was cuhrayzee. but we have so much fun. together with amy, sharidah, eipy, ciko, eny, dayang, ayul, adib, arip, amin, raja... unfortunately, linda,apis, RK, couldn't make it with us... traffic was suck! well today im not gonna talk about what is my new dream for 2012. its just not me. 

my goal is, i wanna be fashion photgrapher, and also interior designer. im tired hiding my "GAY" dream job to the world. i feels so free capturing moments through my lens and designing some space for people. cause what i think i what i will get doing this job. btw i got to go now, im not feeling so good cause my mood is everywhere. i am sad with my self. 

what is going on?

hi guys. back here so late *______* have u ever wondering y d hell in the world friends always come and go? i don't understand that but aaaaaamm..... it is hard right to lose them? i am not so sure. now i am listening to pretty reckless-make me wanna die. i heard this song first time when i watched victoria's secret fashion show lately. very intersting opening. with candice opening d show looking like that, pow! uh-may-zinnnnn!  so let's get back to my story. where m i just now? mmmmm ok. i have a few friends that seems like they trying to run away from me. ok not just me, with me n my friends. y, i don't understand. so i don't wanna think a lot about that. im just wanna know how it feels like when losing our friend. ooo i thought it is already 4 a.m but it is 2:30.. hihihi i need time machine. 

ok the second thing is. officially, it is the right time for me to have a girlfriend. y?cause litarally i found my self confused. oooo it is not my orientation. im just confused my my self with what the heck m i doin. how could it b like this. yeah after 5 and a half year being single, totally drive me cuh ray zeee... so many speculation about me has been made. i can find a girl to be my girl in a short time. butta, the q is, it is just for fun or is it for me to love her like for real. i don't wanna treat her like a bull dog if i can't love her just because to cover up all the rumors that i am gay. that is not fair for those girl. so i made my mind clearly, "no matter what people gonna say about me, go on. but when the time is right, game on". sya told me that i might be a good lover if i had a girl. poww! how d hell in the world this guy with so much energy goin on, loud, hyper, extremely half rude, hard-headed, lazy but hardworking, swinging mood person can be a good lover. for god sake, i don't get it neither.

so, i am not so sure if i have a class tomorrow morning cause, everybody keep sayin that "esok? kelas? ade ke weh?" hahahaha powww again! 80% happy answer. well i am listening to nicki minaj right now. super bass. what is that mean? super bass? boobs + ass? oh kemon nicki, we knew what's that song real meaning is. butta... your song and your voice r so cool. haha my hair looks terrible without my hat. very unbalanced. 

to make sure that im in a good condition, i will stay in da house tomorrow think about who i am really was. if i don't have a class tomorrow hahaha. so its time for me to walk around to c what is d new posts of my friend. :) have a good night and day people *______- red malboro just  make my head spinningaround. haha